Silent Blabber

DO I HAVE TO SAY THANK YOU?

blabber c',) — Thu, 11 Mar 2010 22:24:46 +0000

I’m just wondering because it seems that somebody’s expecting a gratitude from me because my husband is already here in Canada with me.

I think, in their minute brain, they or should I say, she thinks that she helped bring my husband here with me.

HELLO???????????

You just gave me an idea dear. But help?! I don’t fucking think so!!!!

I do extend my gratitude towards the members of the POEA FORUM because they are the ones who answered all my questions.

I thank my friend (Male 2) because he was the one who helped me fill-out the form for my husband.

I thank my family for the support they gave me.

YOU????!!!! You’re just an asshole who thinks that everything that is happening with me is because of you!!!!

I have what I have because of MY EFFORT. Not YOURS!!!!

So, do I owe you a thank you???!!!! I DON’T FUCKING THINK SO!!!! My advise, GET A FUCKING LIFE!!!!!

BLAB OF THE DAY

blabber c',) — Sat, 27 Feb 2010 21:51:02 +0000

I really don’t know how I should feel.

Angry?

Happy?

Or maybe a little bit of both?

Well, you see, I’m not the type of person who always look for enemies. As far as I’m concerned, I always live by my motto in life that I can’t trust anyone but myself, especially in a foreign country.

It’s just that, I can’t seem to shut up sometimes.

I always have an opinion with whatever is happening around me, even if it doesn’t really directly concerns me. And I guess, that always bring trouble to my life.

Well, I feel angry partly because the two stupid people in this entire community seems to can’t get over themselves and just go on with their lives. Their eyes are always on me. With whatever I’m doing and whatever I’m saying, like voltures ready to pounce on their prey!

It can be flattering actually. Haha… I mean, I don’t think about them and here they are, thinking about me always! Shucks…

But realistically, it’s already pissing me off.

Why can’t they just grow up?!

And the pathetic losers are now talking about the way I look!

I mean, get a grip assholes! You’re the ugliest people I’ve ever met both inside and out!

Tsk tsk tsk…

People are now starting to notice how pathetic and egotistic both of you are! Somebody even said one of you is a slacker at work! Sad as it may be for both of you but I’m laughing my butt off!

THE SAD TRUTH

blabber c',) — Wed, 17 Feb 2010 09:59:31 +0000

I’m not sure if I’m just being lazy or bored but as the day goes by, I feel more and more depressed going to work.

Maybe it’s frustration of how things are being done here or maybe work is not as fulfilling as I thought it would be.

I always thought that working in a western country, such as Canada, would be a much better experience for a young nurse like me. But really, I felt more fulfilled and satisfied with my nursing experience when I used to work in Saudi Arabia!

I miss working with Pyxis, E-mar and HeartStart.

I miss working with a 24/7 laboratory and pharmacy.

And I totally miss taking care of a very sick patient.

I know I’m not working in an ICU setting anymore and I guess it’s nobody’s fault but my own for accepting this job offer.

I was so blinded by the idea of working and living in Canada that it never really crossed my mind to ask the recruitment team of my employer that time what kind of setting they have.

I guess you can’t really have everything.

I mean, yeah, I am happy with my $35/hour rate and yeah, I’m happy with the thought that in less than 2 years, I’ll be a permanent resident of Canada. But there’s always that feeling of sadness that I am not as professionally fulfilled as I thought I would.

It’s hard being me, I guess.

ARE YOU IN NEED OF….

blabber c',) — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 15:04:40 +0000

A photographer (or even just photo editor) for whatever occassion?

Let me introduce you to Ice.

She’s a graphic artist but also has a talent in photography.

She’s not paying me to advertise her talent but I believe in what she can do. She’s superb especially in making your photos look amazing.

Just click on the link and you’ll be brought to her multiply site with tons of pictures including this one which she edited (but not photograph just to be clear).

For those brides looking for something unusual for their prenup pictorials, why don’t you check her out and see what she has to offer? She is not as pricey as the real professional photographers but she’ll deliver just like one.

Just a quick note: she’s not your typical woman. If you have issues with homosexuality then she’s not for you. It’s your loss though.

BLACKBERRY CURVE 8520

blabber c',) — Wed, 03 Feb 2010 21:13:42 +0000

After 5 months here in Canada, I finally decided to get a mobile phone.

Introducing my Blackberry Curve 8520 White

Specifications:

2.0 MP Digital Camera
Video camera capabilities
Supports BlackBerry App World
256MB Flash memory
Wi-Fi enabled
Blackberry Maps
Built-in GPS capabilities
3G network access
Bluetooth enabled
Multimedia player
wireless email
organizer
browser
phone
SMS/MMS

Network: Rogers Canada – Voice and Data Plan

150 (+200 bonus) minutes
unlimited voice call from 5pm
500 MB data included
unlimited send and received messages (text/picture/video)
call waiting, group calling and call forwarding included
add-on: international text messaging (50 text/month)

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Why choose the white instead of the regular color of black? Well, everybody has the black BlackBerry. I wanna stand out so I chose the white. There’s a purple color available and I was thinking of getting that one but the white strucked me more.

Although I can read my emails and chat using my BB, I still prefer my iPod touch in terms of the applications like using facebook. BB’s applications are very limited and a bit pricey, if I may say.

Anyways, another one removed on my wishlist.

RUNAWAY PATIENTS???

blabber c',) — Mon, 01 Feb 2010 18:38:42 +0000

My weekend shift was bad.

Not super bad but just bad.

Started with a 21 year old patient who was drunk and was hit in the head by a beer bottle. He had a 1cm laceration on the top of his head. He was so drunk that he couldn’t feel the pain or even remembered (or so he says) what happened.

He was accompanied by his friend (who was also with him when the incident happened) and his father.

Anyways, I cleansed the wound and applied pressure gauze to control the bleeding which, for the record, will not even cause his Hgb to drop even 1%.

I phoned the doctor on call and because it’s the weekend, on-call doctors don’t usually come for rounds until about lunch time and they only come for EMERGENCIES. Meaning, life and death situations.

And so, the doctor told me to prepare for suturing and that he will come. He did not specify the time and I did not even asked him how long it’ll take him because for one, I’ve already assessed the patient and vital signs are very stable and second, I’ve already controlled the bleeding.

I’ve also informed the patient and his companions that I’ve spoken to the doctor and that we just need to wait till he arrives.

Thinking that everything is under control, I went to do my IV meds, and assessed the in-patient and reviewed some of the charts.

All of a sudden, the father was telling me that his son was walking out the door because they have been waiting for the doctor to come. I tried my best to persuade him to ask his son to stay but he went on telling me that his son’s case was emergency and that they shouldn’t have to wait for 2 hours and that his son is bleeding profusely, blah blah blah….

I’ve apologized for the time that they’ve waited and explained to him what my assessment was and that I passed that information to the doctor etc etc. He then said that they’ll go somewhere else and that his son is 21 years old and can do basically whatever he wants.

I again apologized and what did I get in return? He says, “Well, you’re not a doctor are you? This is not a hotel that you can just apologize!”.

My colleagues, just told me to not feel sorry anymore because they are not worth it.

By the middle of the day, around lunch time, a female patient came in saying she has pain in her back and legs. This time, the doctor was just there. After assessing the patient, he ordered for Toradol IM and some blood works.

While he was doing his orders, the patient asked me where her health card was and I told her that I already gave it back to her. I then went to our medication room to prepare for the Toradol and when I came back out she was nowhere to be found. When I went to check in the patien’t lounge, I saw her in her truck driving away. I was like, what the hell?! I told the doctor that the patient just left. He also couldn’t believe what happened and told me to phone the patient. Can you believe what that ass of a patient said when she answered the phone? She said that she’ll go somewhere else and that we can discard her file. (note: she’s from another province)

We’ve concluded that probably she’s a drug seeker and that she did not like what the doctor ordered and she probably wanted a morphine or demerol and when she learned that she’ll only be given a toradol, she sped away! Damn ass!

But my luck did not end there.

Before my shift ends, a patient phoned me from home and says that he’s having chest pain. I actually couldn’t understand what he was saying because he’s speech was slurred. I had to ask him to spell out his name so I can get his hospital file and told him to go the hospital so we could assess him.

The next thing we know, the ambulance was paged and guess what?! The patient was a fucking drunk who is very well known because of his same complaint of chest pain everytime he gets freaking drunk!!!

He was very rude to the paramedics who brought him in, wouldn’t even let us touch him and keeps on uttering curses and profanity! Anyways, his EKG was NSR and his cardiac markers were all normal. The only abnormal on his blood works was his Hgb of 100.

He was advised for an admission to further investigate the drop in his Hgb but as usual, he refused and says he will walk out bare naked if he has to and freeze to death before we can admit him in the hospital.

I let him sign a release of responsibility form but I also told him that I am advising him to seek medical consult with regards to the symptoms of bleeding. I told him, he can take my advise or just ignore it but it’s all up to him.

2 drunk and an addict in a day. What can be more sweeter?!

THE SAGA NEVER ENDS

blabber c',) — Tue, 26 Jan 2010 00:56:35 +0000

Just last night, my 2 amigos and I found out that we were deleted from Male 1’s facebook account. The 3 of us were so surprised especially that after the drama, we already talked with Male 1 and apologized for whatever he wanted us to apologized for. But then, the wife still kept telling Female 2 that they are still unhappy with the way our relationship with them is because she feels that we have not totally patched things up and that we’re not talking to them, which is so untrue because we do greet them everytime we see them and when Male 1 and I work together, we do communicate ok. I guess, what she or both of them wanted is to bring back the same old closeness we once had before the bruhaha started. But something happened and we can’t deny that it’s not going to be the same as it used to be, although we were not even good friends to start with, because first and foremost, they are the ones who are isolating themselves to us. They don’t call us, they don’t come over our place and they don’t even invite us to go out so how can they even expect that we’ll do the same for them and that everything will be ok? Do they want us to be the ones to make the first move? That’s soooo high school!

Female 2 already told her flat out that the thing have been resolved already and that there’s no point on going back to the past over and over again because we’re all mature people and we have to move on.

Well, apparently, the husband and wife a-holes has not moved on and the 3 of us guessed that our recent trip in the city has caused Male 1 mental that maybe he thinks that deleting us in his facebook account will solve their stupid problem.

But how can jealousy, crab mentality and insecurity be cured by just merely erasing some people on your facebook account?

We all think that it’s really our trip that drove him to the edge. Why, because the two of them are ssoooooo overly boring! They can’t accept the fact that the 3 of us don’t need their car to go somewhere or that we do go somewhere and enjoy ourselves without them. They are outright jealous of the fact that we are happy people and they are so pathetically insecure and immature!

It’s not going to ruin our lives. The three stoogies will still go on and have fun and they can die with envy.

ACUTE CARE vs PCH

blabber c',) — Sat, 23 Jan 2010 04:00:15 +0000

PCH – Personal Care Home

Acute Care – 24 bed ward, ER and OPD

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Starting next month, I’ll be swapping some of my shift to one of the Filipino nurses assigned in PCH. Incidentally, she’s also my housemate.

She requested to be rotated to the hospital side ( acute care ) because she has been in PC for almost 5 months and she feels that she’s not growing professionaly in PCH.

She asked me yesterday if it was ok with me. The swapping. I said it’s no big deal. As I’ve mentioned previously in my other posts, I hate to be in charge of the hospital anyway and I still stand by it.

I’ve been oriented in PC a couple of months ago and I find working there more “safe”.

SAFE in the sense that my license is not always at stake. I mean, I’ll still be in-charge. I’ll be the only nurse in the wing and only hospital aides doing the bedside but most, if not all, of the residents are DNR. We’re just there to help them in their everyday needs and medications. It can be sad at times especially when you get to be attached to the residents and hear their stories and the reasons why they ended up in PC but it’s also interesting to learn a lot of things from the elderlies. Some of them are very grateful and appreciative of your care as a nurse.

I won’t be able to use some of my acute nursing skills, of course, but being a nurse for 11 going on 12 years, I’ve had a fair share of nursing experience especially in the acute care settings that it really doesn’t matter. The important thing for me right now is to work safely and to keep my Canadian RN license forever!

And to be brutally frank and honest, it’s not even a loss to be out of acute care for a while. Not much experience there anyway!

IN CHARGE AGAIN!

blabber c',) — Tue, 05 Jan 2010 22:15:48 +0000

I thought after my charge stint last weekend, I’ll have a much better work days starting tomorrow because I’m an extra RN, but I should have thought otherwise!

My nurse manager just phoned me and told me that the RN that was supposed to work with me tomorrow won’t be coming for 2 days because her nephew just died. That’s understandable, of course.

I just need to psych myself again for another grueling day tomorrow!

Crossing my fingers that it’ll be a good day.

MY OWN DOMAIN

blabber c',) — Tue, 05 Jan 2010 15:46:15 +0000

After how many years of blogging, finally I’ve decided to register my own domain!

Welcome to www.silentblabber.com!